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ever feel like pissing teen year away never party never hugged kissed girl real life people terrify feel like stuck trapped | non-suicide |
not friend lol sure people not really dislike nobody like lol people want hang sister friend need someone drive place | non-suicide |
waking remembering cry new kink girl would literally anything love heart love not together anymore rant good morning european fella | non-suicide |
year still not want alive waited patiently others promised better future escape past filled sexual abuse assault child even teenage year constant bullying strict parent blamed bruise came home called best friend whose father molested watched love unreturned loneliness not escape year tired waiting tired hoping better tomorrow tired called selfish wanting leave world tired best never enough tired feeling dirty used unwanted not want wait anymore want go pain never stop | suicide |
ever relationship suicidal partner able good relationship thing got better hey guy throwaway account fyi girlfriend together last year always depressed since met tried everything help couple month ago tried commit suicide luckily understood something wrong could seek medical attention could survive since still everything keep alive get better sometimes good time back suicide trail seeing psychiatrist also medicated read lot people writing different sub suicidal every story read ended way suicide breakup love gf living hope get better life deserve recently started think actually possible together everything never read heard someone stay together everything sorry miswritten anything english not mothertounge tl dr anyone lasted suicidal partner thing got better | suicide |
crowded fuck see people know wanted stay home know everyone going today parent like nope come u | non-suicide |
not like girl wanted state vehicular manslaughter plus dude | non-suicide |
haha time question sexuality tenth time today help | non-suicide |
not even cut properlyi clean cutting two year last night failed could not cut deep wanted matter hard tried really not know make sadder knowing depression reached point suicidal danger not even fucking hurt way want could anymore failure | suicide |
chill discord anyone chill discord server mostly lookin meet people not forget reddit gc comment section guy girl kind pog guess dank memer bot akinator bot groovy listen music sometimes hang vc chill lot meme separate channel nsfw also channel art music tv anime find people like dyno censorship pretty chill dm link yuh | non-suicide |
need something send bunch friend post funny idea ill probably unless get removed spam smthn | non-suicide |
rant constantly bored one class right senior literally need one credit taking next quarter right stupid drawing class basically joke since not need credit school could not give free period basically not anything log class mom not yell never realized much boredom overridden hunching laptop homework ridiculously bored hobby currently jobless looking one fuck man help people homework want | non-suicide |
running mile yesterday kind rainy uphill downhill not stop walk sprinted last quarter fun sprinting drill sergeant holding puke hour guy puked kind marched | non-suicide |
also might wait another five year want share little story past month hard thought killing self planned everything done lot research one thing could not finish letter friend family bad writing always overthink every sentence write not first letter wrote structure similar past letter wanted write something everybody could understand least bit choosen way writing came sentence said would give anything solution not knew written sentance noticed dumb would give anything another way would not give chance change life end even would take year accomplish something worth try consider killing know leave lot pain behind even believe one like think not important always someone hurt action want improve life not easy result might come many month said worth try | suicide |
say dumb not thinking rationally also not depressed think entirely rational way intellect think right not depressed though not going stop committing suicide think view life existence realistic get wish could find someone really understands would nice someone talk actually understands not someone see someone not thinking rationally heard rumor someone upon time belief never actually seen someone say something fit perspective first nihilist atheist think bible debunked much far many hole despite attempt constantly make update change bible fix hole also anti natalist gt person exists eir pain bad thing person exists eir pleasure good thing not exist not suffer therefore non existing pain good thing not exist not deprived pleasure therefore non existing pleasure not bad thing best thing would not born first place unfortunately thing eventually going die live relatively short life dying painful painful heart attack last second conciousness second painful scary experience life hope sake might not even die normal survive first heart attack like someone stabbing death reviving back life promising come back kill soon heart attack best natural cause death life meaningless promise painful death lurking closer u think smartest thing end life term choose least painful way commit suicide | suicide |
always happen happy fall break something else not anymore reason reason sad | non-suicide |
age flair returning teenager title etc | non-suicide |
making plansi suicidal never bad feel alone talk lot people seem support not connection one sided making plan today might take bike tonight stake good bridge hopefully not go right want write note first also hate die soon people connect popular show thirteen reason luck not | suicide |
illegal illegal draw hentai | non-suicide |
helpfuck looked help long many place always always get denied please fucking please | suicide |
suicidal friendi friend scorned everyone known loved told people trying push edge everyone given know talked others sorta let go talked like time seems serious told want find people want show affection know nobody would ever love okay alone okay ignored invisible nobody know first place one know gone please help | suicide |
never ending guilt trip life frustrating never told anyone problem ever guy not suppress emotion decided eat instead telling parent doctor emotional struggle nod head agree whenever tell need lose weight convinced family fine eat lazy truth reaching pound age totally want kill want get better time not kill suddenly know parent would heartbroken not kill ask help would feel ashamed would still feel guilty would feel like bigger burden already would make want kill even sorry posting episode probably not going kill airing god really hope afterlife last thing want die confront family like anime | suicide |
anyone willing talkfeeling | suicide |
finally get like month hey awhile okay chat little bit delivered h ago | non-suicide |
stop waking feeling suicidal past day took p minute get thought killing time thought dissipated day progressed stop thinking like thanks | suicide |
people say want hear give uphas anyone else experienced talking someone want hear anything soon start talking already look tired like oh saying want hear help lot thank | suicide |
psych wardi not go back not threaten suicide not even think otherwise go back awful cesspool put fucked kid well em nurse doctor condescending like not fucking fault ended nobody ever want suicidal mental disorder not see isolation put w psychopath help make logical sense mental health system america isway similar prison people need family moment oh wait many others not family care want involved haha want fucking kill badly not tell anyone nothing worse hospital society treat suicidal people like livestock incentive die yet mindset fucked world live want leave somebody please tell wrong not | suicide |
dying think day night never like get want kill waste space live parent unemployed want get job coward afraid embarrassment failure right already failure sorry thought everywhere kill parent would much money sister parent love would sad long run would money never dull stupid unhappy person please help find motivation life think dying consuming huge disgusting coward edit want say thank support love subreddit people absolutely amazing advice given realistic definitely take board truly amazing human being not know know love people like thank everyone fight hard overcome dark part life please spread hope given | suicide |
not hate think good person want die feel though helping every person talked try give talk good person deserves not think bad think deserve not want really bad shit turned nice caring still depressed fuck still not want not think burden anything sort not like life living always way mean always seen therapist always made worse tell gotten point genuinely not know anymore session start go nowhere stop seeing try new one outcome tried handful medication nothing helped thing keeping ending right second not wanting hurt people around waiting die subtly taking worse worse care closest got giving kidney infection hoping sepsis set partner caught not feeling good made see doctor made take antibiotic want look like accident seen suicide people life every night go sleep hope heart not wake disappointed alarm clock go though lately suicide seemed lot enticing maybe time get think quarantine got lot alcohol possession moment want drink death not keep going people not feel good suck really bad actually need think best think not going happy not even want | suicide |
comment fuck as daddy post comment fuck as daddy post | non-suicide |
question asphyxiation would pas quicker thicker rope thinner put plastic bag head would speed process drunk sober | suicide |
fuckedhey guy fucked really bad not see way recovering finished spring semester college pretty sure failed class top dropped class earlier semester killed gpa reduce total credit hour actually passed far risk losing scholarship unless take summer class plan talk parent taking easy class summer help bring gpa credit hour count back parent currently not know failed dropped anything talked taking class summer stated unless dropped failed anything literally reason taking anything summer parent extremely strict asian parent threatened pull college perform extremely scared saying anything not want life even worse already already limit social life afraid lock house get hint really not want drop college said not losing scholarship not taking extra semester finish degree pretty sure definitely fucked really not know not seem sort recourse really feel like way die like would much rather wait next paycheck buy gun end talk | suicide |
back not know happened quit med not think need say bipolar give bullshit placebo pill hardly done anything seriously doubt quit med not need not experience common trigger experience physiological emotional extreme associated disorder misdiagnosis know not care three doctor agreed wrong wrong med going ruin thought came back keep going almost cyclical period wanting go gender transition completely lose interest week month later not know side trust going treatment ended quitting stupid fucking reason flaring flare flare extreme extent not make rational decision emotion unstable become suicidal engage self harm period last week month not understand intense literally not focus anything else besides idea transitioning thought plague night day haunt sleep afraid go sleep not not want worse get worse long not treated almost certain going get worse first day flare incredible amount distress right suicidal thought starting come back not relax breathe not get anything done transition die option not able transition near future treatment minimized effect fine two year ago worked fine not fucking done shit done want end not give shit anything else point not even know since anything could use removed house previous attempt know find way get worse not know going go kind scared not want end back psych ward not stupid transgender crap fueling also bunch psychiatric problem keeping getting anywhere life therapist even told patient problem thanks doc told not expect able sustain real job pay well either part time min wage servitude disability either way not able pursue gender transition leaf choice going end soon | suicide |
know really overused phrase anyone else feel like born wrong generation explain often feel like world move thousand mile hour general common people let u say grandparent generation general not wavelink peer | non-suicide |
feel like giving upi tired numb exhausted trying whole life battle people want give want let go family left care amazing partner dog happy battle tiring exhausting nothing work anymore nothing feel empty damn near time stopped cutting year also exhausting resist urge cut sometimes supportive friend partner dog grateful sad time day hard get bed feel useless hopeless fucking tired want get better want live every time seek help not work get pushed away quit searching think partner would happier another person not far gone truly happy content think soul damaged like hate feeling numb hate empty feeling hole stomach heart bad anxiety depression bad top also got diagnosed borderline personality disorder last year incredibly difficult manage find hard get house feel like sleeping day feel pretty much dead inside not know anymore | suicide |
asked homie wanted anything halloween said parent not want anything posting gf way ex fucked relationship much ended start dating best friend ayo fuck bitch | non-suicide |
corona cockblocking cmon meet girl like girl ask girl girl friend girl like girl want girlfriend girl unsure girl worried talk facetime girl worried might not like real life girl conflicted pain cockblocked | non-suicide |
guy said yes know date today | non-suicide |
think aboutevery single day vivid image ending like want get head know family care amount compared think day not like anything want free negativity | suicide |
wish would get cancer incurable illnesslife not worth living got unfortunate mix unattractive irratible dumb realize shitty world really want kill love people would feel awful suicide effected even affect year wish would get cancer die people could say bad luck instead not know maybe start smoking cigarette something wonder many smoke get desired result | suicide |
mind feel free share anything lmao bored want hear stuff | non-suicide |
fact ocean man considered dead meme kind sad like song amazing amazing duo one see meme | non-suicide |
hellhound demon girl sexy heaven pray shit know would rather end | non-suicide |
force stay night end sleeping whole day not stand living anymoreliving consuming right like dead sleeping day long possible | suicide |
ngl id love friend people pst ey kaya christine two active one others probably asleep two cool | non-suicide |
found dad trump supporter anyway could guy ask parent someone adopt not want live house anymore | non-suicide |
fucked uptry break scissors sitting front girl like scissors broke stabbed vein wrist accident girl like freak blood come girl freak go hospital not talk | suicide |
not know still hanging point f honestly life gone hell want drop school run away not gps tracked nowhere else go feel shit ton pressure perform well broken beyond repair possibly well school anymore energy devoted coping stress pain become tired worn even work function properly constantly forgetting forgot exam possibly final online class already going fail lose scholarship parent not much money not college educated one parent work not find job qualified matter much try aspergers bad social interaction disqualifies job already b c interview application ever get looked usually alone left not close friend invisible alone entire life not know anymore tell someone call cop possibly drag away handcuff not voluntarily go er throw ambulance lock hospital visit take blood data leave alone rot boredom doctor staff patronizing well still irritates day nothing change underlying issue drove point breakdown every time never get addressed not get understood see one handle hearing issue willing listen understand therefore trust one whatever cliche thing people say bullshit not actually care not supposed people want live not feel responsible get ego boost saving someone keep everything fake smile laughter try act like usual self please others feel bad hurting people gone unbearable pain year not seem end way not take anymore since not go college anymore due finance unable handle stress skill value add thing left go sell body plasma prostitution money worth not like anyone actually love average looking way much baggage get ignored unnoticed unless something value get used lot anyone want favor homework help housework fetching stuff grunt work etc way child prostitute family friend molested possibly took virginity around age paid keep quiet not thing without interrogated b c tracked plus prostitution illegal undercover cop not go therapy ran visit college counseling large state school money insurance suicide hotline suck call cop not actually want die living painful put decade still love learning reading teaching tutoring fun well new experience use not degree experience feel like lived life vain thing worry dog good friend mine sister thing little yorkie cute energetic always look forward return home honestly not want wonder happened love friend checked isolated disappeared not close sister care feel like somehow plus got help homework even though drain part led point first place tired overwhelmed lot pain right feel dead lifeless not get started work anymore feel utterly broken useless worthless not know without fucking life even want pain end thinking much not able anything got mess could not write essay turn work time also keeping alive still thinking not frustrating not know forced keep living even everything fall apart not bought alcohol yet vent felt bit better | suicide |
supposed taking tote school exactly title say supposed taking note school forgot blame online school even though obviously fault xd haha | non-suicide |
finally reached karma thank helping achieve goal grateful achieved karma | non-suicide |
anyone else grade taking college class school reach junior year take college course | non-suicide |
mind going haywire not know wth going | non-suicide |
people right stop posting reddit kill myselfpeople pm said post much people need help feel kill get problem everyone el way get helped | suicide |
apple user understand text reach post requirement | non-suicide |
please tell whiny cunt stfu carry oni method mind would string cheap plastic rope hanging clothes building high enough perhaps condo staying way attach rope properly think way would get best two classic method hanging jumping rope around neck meant slash head break neck body weight least seems like fast relatively easy option yet quite graphic would witness outcome perhaps would want get intoxicated beforehand make even easier never fond hard work prior moment started writing ridiculous thing accomplished quite thing may seem like something fact not make happy work one tallest building city office th floor salary decent benefit include basic medical coverage common room condo upgrade master without much hassle shifted room month ago wanted space bigger window cute girlfriend kind smart talented family accepts le relationship parent somewhat bearable immediate visible crisis not save day trip another first world asian country recently came back shit storm current company something made heart beat twice fast thought would not job entire course life far tell played card well probably best way possible stayed track note company thing messy episode good colleague left company various reason one main issue company culture everlasting mess occured due fact thing not done properly beginning also every day could last anyone except one slippery bitch able hang around longer anyone else spoiling atmosphere others disgusting gossiper politics player not say one happy environment like hold tight not find better place work get deported country never felt like home ton problem however previous company different kind shitty culture left september last year got sold shortly window office day working week year bond would break contract first year employment would repay month salary project going nowhere looking back little life left place owner old used outdated method everything manager time stuck boat carrying nonsense together owner entire place irrelevant modern world not listen not not outsider maybe not even board far know not even director hired specifically solve problem yet able convince give change patient enough wait chance leave first serious job first company able sponsor visa tough call saw contract signing felt option go back still not acceptable various reason may find text later last year university went job hunt rather hard first day class already interview scheduled nothing came sweating lot buy sim card still though year studying best ability first semester result clear push forward get st class honour kept going meet ups interview spamming recruiter cv one ctos spoke called back office building failed interview miserably say not worth hiring offer unpaid internship little know involved one already not give much experience anything constant feeling not belong place team project one company liked much even applied visa got rejected degree not ready moment though worthless end wrong though degree diploma course holiday back home learning driving getting license failed first driving exam stupid kid standing near crossing not going cross rule slow second try success could legally drive car sometimes think dad found way bribe someone get exam officer kind thing dad would evidence time spent diploma course pretty fun studying well knew much time ahead extra curricular stuff well lot friend definitely studied degree going quite often even staying fun sort fixing social life year school experimenting girl even not much predator chapter life pretty good think felt happier back hope future exact hope raped crashed destroyed first couple year real adulthood described second paragraph college managed finish school gpa pure luck rather hard work senior year research competition happened kid coolest project adequate presentation skill yet highly valued gave free pas teacher parent not good kid competition mandatory counselling half year due underage alcohol abuse police caught friend causing public nuisance train station tobacco wrapped piece paper cop thought weed though freaked parent expertise shown tobacco friend dealer decided joke time pure luck drug mostly pharmacy hooked chewing tobacco parent strict hiding stashing stuff various place mention house searched police dad far know stupid enough download porn local tracker leave seeding took computer including mine together gaming project brought together around user founder project taken away people took charge left never looked back not know kind porn dad still free seen computer anymore maybe trick confiscate everything go file whatever know read message learned encrypt everything younger sister secondary school far popular kid not really bullied big guy one wanted fuck couple rage episode earlier year not welcomed either maybe high school outsider weirdo loner already friend though not bad overall not happy reputation shit not school among friend martial art group youngest always wanted hang older kid thinking kid age dumb forced well went school year early also pre teen episode suicide talk drawing suicide pictured year old pushed people away well not say happy childhood dad renovation project forced help spent time outside school though hated mum year younger dad never much say family conflict dad parent another blah blah blah not want touch everyone pretended everything ok feel like everyone reason hate one another not remember much early childhood maybe couple blur episode like time never existed pretty much story far bumpy road hate prospect life offer hard work seems worthless not make happy not know want tell story maybe talk quote film like not particular reason certain hour night awake sound train roar right apartment time feel lift bed earsplitting thunder silence | suicide |
orphan tear like yummy haha esketit fortnite poggers | non-suicide |
reason leave earth maybe even tonight love not word dictionary not loved not helped everyone left bother living point end suffering deal top depression top heartbreak top everything else end tonight maybe screaming cry hurt people break heart want tonight want want end suffering one hears pain much pain much silent screaming head enough ethan broke piece told leave alone leave one last thing news killed | suicide |
hey started streaming plz drop follow told longer body | non-suicide |
hi fellow peep peepettes discord server friend r trying get new peoplee chat send meme play game like minecraft among u overwatch stuff going not commitment guy girl welcome dm link | non-suicide |
welpim fucking done life dysphoria think already suicidal today found not get school dream go life plan since third grade fucking window god real sure hell fucking hate not know going make tomorrow | suicide |
not face family flunked college second time not see recovering everyone high school already graduated finding job not even pas first year family doubt kick house looking method not help feel extremely sad leaving little brother behind love love | suicide |
woosh woosh lightsaber fear | non-suicide |
okay girl give award hello girl real human girl amp xb | non-suicide |
whywhy cry thought people would feel looking back last message sent sent | suicide |
everyday wish diei want die badly go bed think dying want someone shoot give gun | suicide |
user flair love user flair go old like wow turned guess old dying | non-suicide |
tell reson noy mother not desrve control bizzarre debilic mad teen break hospital window get lokeck mental hospitalery good woman mother went pale people around not deserve live psycho plase tell reason not kill | suicide |
ex boyfriend birthday not want alive today ex turn eighteen new relationship girl left seems super happy hand downward spiral since broke increasingly depressed anxious think want die today | suicide |
disgusting worthless personi insult people make feel better horrible person lose friend family distanced not able get close anyone get lonely lonely rejected feel insulting hurtful miserable cycle want die complete joke human | suicide |
please helpm central ohio year run depression went bad worse worse last month taken cutting finally quitting got dog one thing keeping alive parent mean well end extremely mentally abusive sometimes physically live fairly affluent family fairly affluent nerd play amp etc not want live pain depression anymore tried failed without anyone finding not told anyone done time think successful scared relieved thanks see not going thanks reddit actually love reddit community good run bye | suicide |
last year life destroyed not want keep trying one week ago left year met saved suicide helped resist suicidal urge whilst living south year long distance relationship managed move best month life every day utter bliss came home one day told needed talk felt not making happy anymore not trying hard enough quick context order move halfway across country practically give prior life lost car income longer local friend moved loved much thought soulmate always told would together forever would never stop loving always seemed like meant broke within day another man friend made lived originally shot break said would let live could afford move hopped greyhound came back south live family roughly week ago absolutely devastated emotionally fighting today mature break still talking supporting woke late today hungover never drank alcohol even moderate amount much le enough get drunk ever since new man become steadily trashy time saw break left left state wearing ratty clothes smelled strongly cigarette gotten drunk enough bad hangover helping hangover best could several state away talked fairly normally inadvertently saying sex new man several time even first night break since mood gradually declining not want continue life tired feeling like everyone ditch wayside anytime anything else happens real friend not entire time since break despite saying would supportive ex unresponsive randomly take hour even respond real support family financially supportive unsupportive even told family bad felt said need grow learn deal not tell close friend suicidal would never want burden much fearful person deathly afraid everything inside always calm level headed outward appearance truth hideously neurotic inside worrying everything could go wrong matter small benign feel self worthy people tell worth anything not keep not want try find someone else love love never find anyone interest not able find job took year last time not want keep trying struggling year nobody turn someone knew intimately help get suicidal tendancies not anymore not want continue edit fighting back suicidal feeling ever since got back not temporary overload | suicide |
first time truly considering odi got natural supplement smart could figure tempted gulp deal consequence later life mess mess not know else | suicide |
one best friend told given one best friend told given lot abuse physically mentally throughout life top partially disabled gay one strongest people ever met although never person grown close quarantine time lot time happy joking caring relatively happy blue sometimes start go day night extremely depressed anxious reason top closet people life talk see option month nobody would even remember people past caused trauma ptsd come anytime hold barred day getting really tired exhausted mentally physically various reason trying express emotion last basically crashed know one worst thing situation like best letting know best ability listen give non judgmental thought not seemingly enough seems getting worse worse mentality running idea reassure ex not answer matter world others anniversary trauma coming know going make significantly worse going best beginning strain mental ability lack sleep otherwise also affecting ability aid struggle many issue suicide past relationship friend planning end nothing compared challenge currently facing need friend need way not lead suicide mental deterioration frankly not know tldr help | suicide |
trust issue anyone know fix not get anything long life lied family stuff friend leave not like every relationship cheated making new friend potential partner difficult kind ugly n fat trust issue not trust people someone could say love think lying suggestion | non-suicide |
people hoping catch coronavirus diebecause reading often last day incredibly shitty plan suicide statistically chance huge nothing make sick week two might inadvertently pas people actually want live though loved one might pas road might kill somebody actually not want die missed lot please not selfish consider | suicide |
anyone want trade want trade consciousness want another person day gf not comment not simp | non-suicide |
not anyone else talk toi still suicidal want badly someone want someone want someone first choice person respond first want hang feel selfish still suicidal people care privilege support still want lonely everyday sinking feeling not matter one tell even not solve loneliness feel empty alone everyday sleep everyday waiting someone notice not okay | suicide |
dream fucking happy oh wake fr though come mom gotten skirt ballet flat gender affirming underwear kind shit woke dad took comforter missing hw assignment hate reality not fair | non-suicide |
day rating bus ride late last night bus ride little late oh well ok one sat next noone great chill got homework done listened music nothing much else really happened usual ride ok well see evening day bye | non-suicide |
sister need boyfriend ay got sister beautiful tall lovely lady trying find boyfriend guy interested contact would good birthday july ft taller speaks english not pedo | non-suicide |
girl skribbl io nothing much skribbl picked wrong word nice thank penny reymond hope safe | non-suicide |
anyone know time new attack titan episode come really want watch idea come watching series funimation make difference | non-suicide |
help please want talk crush idea say please help filler fier filier fier filler amp xb amp xb amp xb amp xb amp xb amp xb amp xb amp xb amp xb filler | non-suicide |
need help mom month away baby getting sharp pain went doctor said fine stage anyway need help bed every day say need bath worried might hurt hard time getting hot water little scared give advice also know incorrect word | non-suicide |
anyone sorting new post people sorting new realistically not making past new good day guess | non-suicide |
awkward gray area fucking idea awkward gray area girl admitted liking not know really want | non-suicide |
miss someone week since heard used talk every night got grounded feel alone ungrounding going soon wish hear voice tell going okay bad gotten point struggling function without always tough situation lost hope going go back normal not trust say | non-suicide |
wanted end right almost didi brother cerebral palsy parent year old country school degree high school finished middle school thinking going cnc degree parent not allow instead forced go eletrical technician degree cnc not going bring food table went downhill pissed parent knowing inability focus something not interest almost failed nd year point thinking stupid would force child something like instead set semi goal want programmer depression begin rd year lost interest grade studying math physic class interest class bad almost confirmed f honest come school not sleeping day studying forcing least least get get feel emotion knowing fixed grade next week get like f come home usual parent shout grade bad school not future usual sit wait finish going bedroom spend time playing game friend discord watching anime etc fabricating parent brother background possibly still hear talking shit somehow trigger brother mentally unstable break something start screaming cry something yesterday decided week planning end life river head knife sit near river mentally preparing ready pull really sharp kitchen knife going stab could not think feel disgusted close stabbing actually ready die day not take anymore not say oh get better not think parent really debt need take care disabled person probably die digit year considering heart attack family tree getting older sometimes think really bring world take care elderly people brother also anger stupid mean towards help everyday activity around kitchen around house nice towards yet audacity shit everyday come home school either uninterested anything shit u think key unlocking th dimension something high hiearchy dad finishing cook degree mom cashier pathetic | suicide |
thing turn around think back never really happy inside shown outside always troed surround love happiness even knew ot fake putting heart soul relationship putting anyone care guess remedy found helped purpose many demon inside try best ignore many memory try repress try bottle negative emotion anger sadness depression force sort denial eventually go numb put happy face amd exhausting last relationship felt serious enough open ky true feeling amd outlook om world left alone tried kill thing saved dumb enough leave safety rifle heard people find help god never felt someone listening wemt three time week church year tried hardest feel people around felt never eventually accepted life make lately everything tumbled apart lost job found another half salary lost home moved college frathouse control eventually around ruined best relationship another person party thing got evicted distracted woth work alcohol not sober day sonce year ago work eventually got better something actually compassionate allowed move apartment friend family tho state moved girl got pregnant gave sense life eventually could not handle pay terminatin second child lost first started spiral attempt mentioned earlier loved girl fid everything could make work eventually stopped working broke remained friend dated year major part life threw away weekend got fight text weekend bar left talk person ibwrecked car curb security guard called cop got duo night lost everything worked not afford home not want anything woth told happy aborted daughter know incapable man could never person needed not afford fix car not afford lawyer not anything spend night cry sleep spend break cry locker room spend lunch head table next food not able eat day think giving time think people hurt people let think girl love also cosigner car think going destroy credit life mistake think shotgun behind dresser thing holding back not want make ot harder made plan would involve totalling car letting insurance pay car attempt would probably leave body parent would not want see amd bird shot loaded gun not think enough trick since license taken not buy slug think every day feel way not even afford professional talk helpless stupidity lost | suicide |
damn going today not even horny really sad not feel motivated anything | non-suicide |
not see point living plan dosent work plan part time job along investing bunch stuff first year live like college student without partying not like party basically saying spending money essential get lot money use money help create separate side hustle like youtube twitch example really not want work job whole life not lazy really not see point spending life working not enjoying not see future field interested ron stuff not interested enough make living one also getting university college diploma lot case not receipt couple year wasted time rant | non-suicide |
please make stop please make pain stopi not stop cry want held right please make thought go away please something help | suicide |
rebeccaif could go back tell one thing | suicide |
every time get closeevery time get strength put car grab gun go far away everything everyone far signal nothing one around even close even shit put gun head close eye ask god forgive never pull trigger feel like le man everyday want go sleep badly want end pain thought nightmare constant reminder insult never pull way back want gone give society bag ash placed dirt | suicide |
supposed find live even family not want around since child family member made clear value wished not alive existence mistake people thought supposed love matter feel must something terribly wrong people not want around even though people life said would saddened dying would destroy still trouble believing feel may feel sad first life become significantly better truly gone not know much longer hold wish kind value wish not feel like horrible evil person not want make anyone suffer anymore yet selfishly still living cause suffering simply existing | suicide |
help found cp site clearweb need help serious issue | non-suicide |
anybody see new xbox ui personally not like font thing better liked sharp corner also change ui many friend online big annoying look like got notification | non-suicide |
realized something happy fucking distraught time feel like dumbass not realizing time fucking thankful not holy shit | non-suicide |
everyone seriously need make horny post need see horny dm like want cum shit keep subreddit amazing | non-suicide |
got rickrolled freaking chili chili eating clam chowder never going give started playing speaker literally one even cared except | non-suicide |
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